I sat on this pier for the longest time, my skin burning,
imaging what it'd feel like to be going down,sinking to my ankles and into my bones.
I wanted to know so badly to slip into the the dark sea green and take up less space.
I wanted to be small among the presence of giants,
my stomach taut and my bones poking through my skin.
I wanted to remove myself from the lingering horrible feeling of waking up to empty hollowness.
I wanted so badly to love, and to be better at getting better -
to have something growing inside of me.
I looked down and saw myself in the reflection and I wanted to stay.
